I decided a few days ago to get back into it, I'd start painting small. From what I can tell, it's taking a bit but I'm still trying to get the hang of painting digitally. Surprisingly enough, the tutorial I followed of the Human Eye turned out much better than I anticipated for my skill level. From there I guess I should just paint, paint, paint!
Short term wise, I'm thinking I just want to be better. Long term? I haven't decided. Before I had a goal in mind; I wanted to be a concept artist. My problem was both finances and taking away time from my kids and girlfriend. Is it more of a hobby? Hard telling. What I want seems so far out of reach. I suppose it might just be my mindset, but reality hit me kind of hard. There are so many talented artists out there; the chances of me being noticed I think is pretty low.
But I decided that I won't be afraid to keep trying to draw and paint. I'll work my 45 hour a week IT job, and continue to support my family. But to support my needs, I 'need' to paint. I can feel it that it's in my veins. Someday, I hope to unlock my full potential. Maybe, just maybe, someone will take notice and my art work will make people smile. Make people gaze in awe, be inspired. Someday, I'll be able to communicate to people how I feel. I want the world to know that I exist, and there's a place in the world for me.